It is still the first week of 2014 when I get another emotional blow. A wound that had just healed suddenly opened again. Like other scars, it is not as painful as the first time I received the stab. But it hurts nevertheless.
It still hurts, nevertheless.
Last night I was sitting on a public seat at a crowded shopping mall in Singapore, head down, hair down, crying. My boyfriend was there to console me, and I can’t thank God enough for him. I spent another good thirty minutes crying my eyes out in the shower then. But no matter what, I have decided to face it.
Over this past year I have gone through a lot.
I really have gone through a lot.
And through it all, I have witnessed God’s grace and love in my life. Through it all, I realise that I really am loved.
I have family who loves and supports me. I have a loving and understanding significant other. Everytime I make a mistake and stray away from the path, someone is always there to show me the way.
And through it all, God is always there.
God is always there.
No matter what I did, He is still there to forgive me. It may sound like a cliche, but truly His grace is enough. His love overflows. He shows that there is a rainbow behind every storm.
I understand it now.
And everything is going to be okay. Everything is going to be okay. For His cross conquers all.