happy ending

I love happy endings. If that’s going to make such a Disney, fairy-tale girl, so be it.

I love it so much that I am writing this entry during my Technical Writing tutorial. I just couldn’t get it off my head. It is nagging me so much that I start to form these strings of sentences in my brain. I know I wouldn’t be able to do or to concentrate on anything else before I put these words to rest.

So if you are my tutor and you happen to read this (which is highly unlikely), I apologise. I love your lecture, and it’s really great, but, yeah.

Back to happy endings.

I finished reading Gayle Forman’s If I Stay thirty minutes ago. I went to my Goodreads page straightaway and wrote a review on that, which was a mistake, because I suddenly noticed that the book is a part of a series.

Now I’m switching from the computer to my iPad (we have tutorial in a computer lab), because I could hear my fingers typing. iPad’s great to camouflage these sounds.

Back to book series.

I somehow feel cheated. I mean, if I have started on a story, I would need to know everything to the end. If not, I can go crazy. I have this obsessive-compulsive disorder when it comes to finishing a book or finishing a story. And suddenly knowing that there’s a second book forces me to know the story rightaway.

So I Googled on the synopsis, and found out that Mia had left Adam. There was no Wikipedia entry on the book, which was irritating, because now I really need to know if they were going to end up together. I literally wrote, “The ending of Where She Went Gayle Forman” on the search box.

Why? I couldn’t be emotionally involved in a book when in my head, a story has been playing in a different tune entirely. I just couldn’t. I could get bittersweet endings (like One Day, which tore such a hole in my heart), but only if I could anticipate it.

And I crave happy-ending-fairy-tale stories. Real life is already so hard with stories of wrecked people. It’s nice to know that heartwarming stories exist, even in a form of fiction novel.

Like the book Atonement, I always want to give the characters the story they deserve. Even if it’s just in my head. Especially when it’s in my head. I know, it’s just a story, but stories have always been drilled to my soul directly. It sounds like I’m being too poetic, but it’s true. I always get emotionally involved with a book. So it doesn’t help if a story is going to make me feel like a train wreck for the next week.

I know, sometimes I read the last page of a book first. I have to consciously stop myself doing this, but sometimes I just can’t help it. I need to know.

Back to the If I Stay series. I couldn’t find the ending on a simple Google search. My number one priority after I get home is to get the book and read the last three pages. I really hope I can restrain myself from actually doing that.


Photo by Tambriell Caudill